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N+100 : 

Yesterday I had a conversation with P, again. She told me we are the one responsible for our way of being. She said she just decided to erase her suffering. Be less, to be more. Embrace the emptiness. P and I, we don’t have the same relationship to emptiness. What about you? What would you think of it? For me, it’s just like a bad memory of violent death, the void of desperation and disappearance. According to her, it’s about Buddhism and the embracement of the real. 



Leave the abstract world and the hidden meanings of things away, far far from us, apart. Indeed, just leaving the secret sense of life where it belongs unreachable and untouchable for any sense.

 

I don’t really know. 

I don’t really think. 


I don’t really think she is right thought…

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