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Day N+86:

 Day N+86 : 

I must confess I have been noticing a change a big bright change. Is it due to this new silence, eh oh? eh oh? I someone there? Can you hear me? Or even better read me? 


Panic is growing, crawling up along my neck. 


Am I dead?


Or are you dead? 


I cannot tell the difference. It is always so painful when something appears and disappears.  It remains me when my last lover left me or is it their departure that recalls the 


sad 

sad death 


of 


so 

so 


many. 

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