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N + 96: close to an end

 N + 96: close to an end

I drank all the greyness of the day and hoped you would show up in a sunbeam. All of this without announcing you. As I told you last time. I miss you, being all alone is a nightmare. It’s a new path in life I am not sure, yet I want to embrace. How I miss the uncertainty of your presence. Now it’s in your absence that I have to drown myself. 


I try very often to draw a picture of you in the air, gathering all the memories, classifying them, one by one, one after the other, in the right order, the one order I like. No one can tell me what’s right and what’s wrong. I take all the decisions believe it or not. From right to wrong and from left to right (did I told you I always mix up left and right, something must be wrong up there). 


It’s just I don’t like casualty, normality and order. 

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